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I wasn’t the same after I met you. Well met would not be the right word.
I don’t remember the first time I noticed you but I roughly remember meeting your eyes and holding them there.
My life was that of a regular working married with kids’ woman whose life revolves round and round and round the office and home. In between these toggles, I noticed you noticing me. You were this cute young guy. Well handsome-no, I would not call you handsome but yes tall and cute. Well it has happened to me several times that I observe people staring but that is more embarrassing rather exciting. Well you feel you have crossed that age but with you it felt different. I liked the fact that you observe my movements. I often teased you by catching you unaware. I loved that slight smile of realizing.

This continued for months. I often ignored you and looking through you and you sometimes stared back bluntly. But we never exchanged a word.
I suddenly started taking care of how I dress up to office and would get downhearted when I did not see you around. People around me did not have a clue about this for the most obvious reason.  I got ample of opportunities to exchange chats with you but I never took any. I was just happy that you were there. A reason to smile- breath of fresh air.
I had searched through your profiles to know more about you. I know you knew about this but you would not say a word.
We continued our silent exchange but never said a word. You held a door a little longer when it would be for me, take a step slower, chat a little longer when I was around. I couldn't even do that. Because a married woman is not supposed to do this It is a forbidden sin but don’t know why I was doing that. I used to feel the flutter of butterflies but then …
Once I sat and asked myself. Am I cheating on my husband or my married life? Why am I attracted to a stranger?
Then you were gone -for ever & I missed you?-Well No I didn’t. What I missed was the feeling. I went back to my old self –and things were back again to the same old life


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