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HIM

My marriage is falling apart- Is it? I really do not have the answer. We were not this perfect couple but we were no less- we were so happy together. We would fight any Issue or hurdle. My wife was perfect for me. She was a good home maker and I felt she was accepted well. Everyone loved her. Yes, there were some Issues but there were no major ones. I guess I treated her well.

ME

I did not marry him for his good looks, charm or just anything. I married him because my heart said so. I thought I would adjust well. I did try well. I always looked at the positives but then one day I sat there thinking “Who am I?” and the answer scared me. I was a wife, daughter-in-law. I was everything but the person I wanted to become. I had one by one given up all my dreams for the dreams of my loved ones or the expectations from me. Yet people expected me to be happy. Is being loved and cared for enough. Can’t you see that I am not happy. I gave up everything for you all. Yes, you did not ask me but you never even stopped me. You acted as if I had taken up a right decision.
How can I make you happy when I am crying from inside?
You may feel that the marriage is falling apart but I am doing this because I do not want it to. To be frank, this time I do not feel anything for you. No love, no hatred, no anger nothing. I have searched myself again and again for anything but found nothing- nothing at all.
I want just one thing- Just let me be. If I come back- it would be forever. If I don’t- It would be for never.
Please let me be, I have just started discovering myself back. I  have just started to be happy - happy like a child. I am just about of finding my own lost self . And I am sure when I find myself back fully, you would be a part of - an very very important part because you are an important part. I have loved you with my full heart and soul. I know I just need to do the things that make me happy-those things that complete me as a person. I have always tried to do the things that you loved. Please this time let me be. Trust me- I will come back if you will understand me this time.
  


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